Frustration and my love for sewing~

I am so frustrated.... The thing is, I love to sew. Without a pattern, I can play with the different stitches and its so easy and fun!  When it comes to reading the pattern, I feel like I am reading another language.  I wish this came easier to me.  I'm making Ruby's night gown.  Instruction number 1. Front Placket A: To gather edge of placket ruffle with small and large dots, stitch line, using a long machine-stitch.  Press under hem allowance on remaining long edge to meet crease.  Press.  Stitch hem in place.

I am sure this sounds like a piece of cake to others. Witch is probably part of the frustration.  For some reason, I just don't get it and it overwhelms me.  My mom is this amazing seamstress and an amazing mother. I have very fond memories of her, and sewing.  I am pretty sure that's were my love for sewing came from. Does that even make sense?  I have a love for sewing, but I'm horrible at it..... Let me try to explain....

My earliest memory is of me in my crib, at the foot of my Mom and Dads bed.  My mom had a clear box full of ribbons and lace and just an assortment of trims.  She always kept it stored under their bed.  I would always get into it.  I remember being in my crib, and playing with all the ribbons and trims.

She would also sew very late into the night.  I would lay with my blanket at her feet.  Listening to the humming of the sewing machine, it would always put me to sleep.  It was such a soothing sound.

When I was around 5, she took me to swim lessons.  I was not a fan of swim lessons at all.  I would usually cry and beg not to go.  It was one of those swim lesson days.  My eyes were filled with tears.  Not wanting to go to the dreaded place, that had deep water.  "Chrissy she said, If you are good at swim lessons, we will go to the fabric store."  Trips to the fabric store were always a fun time!  I would run down the the fabric aisles with my hand stretched out, feeling all the different types of fabric.  I would look threw the pattern books with her.  She would always let me help her, pick out pretty fabric, for whatever project she was working on at the time.  Even though I loved going to the fabric store with her, I still wasn't convinced on the swim lessons.  Until... She smiled and said, "We can pick a dress pattern out for you, and fabric.  I will make it for you to wear tomorrow."  It made swim lessons exciting!  I knew every time I behaved, we would go to the fabric store.  I also knew I would have the prettiest dress to wear the next day!

I was a fan of Little house on the Prairie!  I loved the night cap that Laura and Mary Engels wore.  My mom whipped one up in no time.  It was so pretty, and it was my favorite color PINK!

So many memories...

She made so many things, my school dresses, my first Communion dress, my prom dresses, 2 flower girl dresses, 6 brides maid dresses, my wedding dress from 2 different patterns, and my babies baptism dress! The baptism dress was made out of some extra material from my wedding dress!  My 3 girls all have gotten a dress from there amazing grandma.  I want to be able to make my girls dresses!  I want my girls to have fond memories of my sewing.

I do call my mom often, and ask her many questions about sewing.  We live an hour away from each other.  I don't see her as often, as I would like.  But, I do know...... "My mom has installed in me, this amazing love for sewing!"

I also need to put in here.... I am the youngest of 9, (8 girls/ 1 boy).

I have told my mom in conversation about this blog.  I'm not sure, if she reads it.  If you do Mom, just know you have given me an amazing gift.  A love for sewing!  I may be horrible at it, but It doesn't change my love for it.  Plus, many loving memories of me and you! I love you Mom!

Deep breath... okay... back to reading the pattern that confuses me... Lol ;D